Well I have been so up and down it's not funny. The food has been out of control the bloating is insane and my weight fluctuates up to 2kg daily!
Hence no weigh in this week cause I have no idea what it really is.
I promise I'll weigh in next week though. I've been going through some photos tonight as I have 2 collage frames to be filled and hung on my walls and no pics to put in them. Chosing some photos to put it means going through everything I have including some of my weightloss piccys.
Now a few pics of me truly stood out. And they really did catch my attention let me share with you.
These photos are brilliant! I love how I look especially in the first two. It just shows that I was doing really really well even when I felt I was still fat as a pig. I have some shakes left here that I have been using on and off but they expire in about July so I'm going to kick back into drinking some more of those and training more and taking my vitamins and supplements. I'm going to do this! I can do it! This shows I can do it! I will do it! I am doing it! I have done it!
I haven't had a day off in awhile I don't see myself having one in awhile either which is a bit stressful. This stress is showing all too well on my face, which of course, is stressing me out even more.
How at 27 does one still end up with a face full of acne? (Simmo?) I think if I had a period it would be on it's way. I think this may explain some of the acne, the weight gain, the cravings and the big clue, super sore boobs! Not something I have ever noticed myself suffering before but today they are hard and ouchie. And no I can't be pregnant I have 1000kms of contraception remember. The movie night I had planned last night fell over when his friend rudely decided to have a baby and want to go out and celebrate. So I got cancelled on. No this was not a date haha. Jase and I are still happily in love. We will have to reschedule for later next week. On another note I'm still awaiting a cheque so I can buy a new laptop but in the meantime Dad was keen to buy a new one for him so we ordered a new one from DELL today with a new wireless router which is supposed to be quicker and cover more distance than the one we have now (Which should be awesome cause atm it drops the connection or is super weak when I'm blogging in bed) And my shoes seem to have an hole in the air pocket in the sole so it was time to check out a new pair since I have to wear trainers everyday because of my ankle. (why I can't wear normal shoes I don't know but the physio and the podiatrist always tell me off) I've decided to buy a few pairs of trainers so I am not constantly wearing the same shoes and a lady was at work the other day wearing a pair I just started drooling over. They have also been advertised consistently on a dummy at work for months so I just had to buy me a pair esp at $50 off!
You can see the perferated pattern in this pic but there is also a super faint silver swirl pattern through these shoes as well. The only downside. They are synthetic. I never buy synthetic shoes. It's just asking for trouble and smelly feet. But what's a girl to do when she falls in love with something? And lets face it it's not often I find shoes I love that I'm allowed to wear as well.
Anyway not much else is happening in my life. I have eaten alot of crap in the last 24 hours so I need to cut that out and tomorrow I'll yet again be at work.
I have no idea what went wrong. I tracked well all week. Trained hard , worked up a sweat a few times even!
I ate healthy I lived on salads and good food. I did have a few of my Nanna's special recipe cookies when Mum cooked those but it wasn't like eating a whole packet or anything. Just a few.
This is now officially my highest recorded weight. I'm sure I have been higher but I never took note of the numbers when I jumped on the scales.
Oh well this is a new week. And I will pull it all together I'm sure. Another thing! I am working towards a personal best / club sales record at work so if you want a gym membership to get a new body for the new year let me know. I am more than willing to help anyone anywhere in Australia (translation - if you sign up at a gym anywhere without asking me first I'll be mortally offended)
My Mum ran into a guy I used to work with dowen at the supermarket just before Christmas and last week I finally got the courage to give him a call. Tomorrow night we are going to see a movie. I am terrified and embarressed because I am so fat and I just wish I was skinnier. I hate that he will see me now at my worst.
People that you haven't seen for 10 years should see you at your best! This is definitely not going to be the case with me and him. Although I have heard he isn't the same skinny boy I worked with all those years ago either. It's going to take awhile to get dressed tomorrow.
Death Toll Up To 17,400; Report Describes PETA's Deadliest Year Ever
WASHINGTON, DC
An official report from People for The Ethical Treatment ofAnimals (PETA), shows that the animal rights group put to death more than 97 percent of the dogs, cats, and other pets it took in for adoption in 2006. During that year, the well-known animal rights group managed to find adoptive homes for just 12 pets. The nonprofit Center for Consumer Freedom (CCF) is calling on PETA to either end its hypocritical angel-of-death program, or stop its senseless condemnation of Americans who believe it's perfectly ethical to use animals for food, clothing, and critical medical research.
Not counting animals PETA held only temporarily in its spay-neuter program,the organization took in 3,061 "companion animals" in 2006, of which it killed 2,981. According to Virginia's Department of Agriculture and Consumer Services (VDACS), the average euthanasia rate for humane societies in the state was just 34.7 percent in 2006. PETA killed 97.4 percent of the animals it took in. The organization filed its 2006 report this month, nine months after the VDACS deadline of March 31, 2007."Pet lovers should be outraged," said CCF Director of Research David Martosko. "There are thousands of worthwhile animal shelters that deserve Americans' support. PETA is not one of them."
In courtroom testimony last year, a PETA manager acknowledged that her organization maintains a large walk-in freezer for storing dead animals, and that PETA contracts with a Virginia cremation service to dispose of the bodies. In that trial, two PETA employees were convicted of dumping dead animals in a rural North Carolina trash dumpster. In Southampton County, Virginia, another PETA employee will face criminal charges in a dog-napping case. Andrea Florence Benoit Harris was arrested inlate 2006 for allegedly abducting a hunting dog and attempting to transport it to PETA's Norfolk headquarters.
"PETA raised over $30 million last year," Martosko added, "and it's using that money to kill the only flesh-and-blood animals its employees actually see. The scale of PETA's hypocrisy is simply staggering."
The Center for Consumer Freedom is a nonprofit coalition supported by restaurants, food companies, and consumers, working together to promote personal responsibility and protect consumer choices.
PETA'S 97 Percent Death Rate - PLEASE DONATE TO HELP KILL MORE ANIMALS
BTW I expect this will offend some of you I know are PETA supporters. But lets take it both directions. I'm a massive animal lover and I refuse to condone actions like the above. This makes me mad as hell! There's no ethics in this group besides their name.
Anyone who's interested can also see watch Penn & Teller Bullshit where they have focused in on PETA below.
My first check in was at 6am this morning. Soooooo early because somehow I have managed to snaffle some early slots with my friend Sanjay the personal trainer. Wonders will never cease! He is always so busy.
So I stumbled out of bed and hit the scales willing to accept whatever they had to say and work my modifcations from there. I was so happy when they came up with a loss. 400grams isn't much especially for a first week but it's less than I weighed last week and less than I weighed in at during the week (when the scales peaked at 115kg).
Then I got dressed and toddled off to work to get my training done nice and early. Thank God because I complained about being hot in the air conditioning when it was 24°C outside. Later this afternoon when the temperature peaked at over 40°C and the air con died I was so happy not to be one of the people training upstairs.
Did a fairly good workout. Not much took alot out of me due to my own inactivity of late but I was so happy all day to have done my workout and be on track. And as a result I've eaten 100% all over again!
This past week I just concentrated on getting started again. I bought bathers and hand flipper thingos, and made sure I got in the pool. Then I backed that up by making sure I was training with Sanjay and booked in for the rest of the month. I also increased my water intake from nothing to 3 litres which I have maintained even during the cooler weather. Cleaned up my eating and I've cut back on the treats. In fact haven't had any the last 2 days.
This week it will be all about swimming, training with Sanjay 3x, drinking lots of water 3+ litres and cutting back further on the treats.
Now I'm kicking back in my hammock with a glass of juice and some aeroguard and just relaxing cause Fri and Sat are going to be my weekend.
I hope you are all doing well. I might have some updates for the blogroll here soon I hope.
I bet more than a few of you have spent time down at the beach today. I know the people that had appointments with me at work were there and not in the gym with me. Hahaha.
I'm still working on my NY resolutions. I am getting further and further with them though. And I have started swimming and I have started increasing my water intake again. The weather is a definite help and the cordial is the perfect assistant. I really find it hard to drink plain water so I stocked up on bottles of no added sugar cordial. Makes it more appeasing to drink, especially after an hour or so in the freezer.
And you can see I am starting to get my goals and rewards happening as well.
There's a cool change about to come through though apparently which will mean it'll be about 10°C cooler. I'll still be sleeping with my fan on. In fact I'm considering sleeping on a blow up bed I just bought in the middle of the living room where there's an air con.
I spent some time outside in my new hammock. Ok it's not actually new but it's been sitting in a bag in my rumpus room for months! I finally got dad to put it up and it's so nice. I remembered the aeroguard but apparently forgot my feet. DAMN THEY ARE SO ITCHY!!!!! I've got some Tiger Balm and SOOV on them to try and settle them a bit. Bites on hands and feet are the worst.
I finally weighed in on Thursday. It took quite a bit for me to get on those scales. The result. 114.7kgs. I'm so upset! This isn't the heaviest I have ever been but it is heavier than when I started trying to lose weight back in 2005 when I weighed in at 114.5kg. But I'm hoping to keep a downward trend from now. I'm not looking for big losses at the moment especially being that there is so much on and so much to do. But I would like to see the numbers drop somewhat.
One of the rewards I've set will hopefully see me out learning to Kite Board in a months time. Does anyone else want to learn with me? It's not cheap but OMG it looks fun. Looks like a damn good workout as well. (See photo at top)
I hope you are all having a great weekend. Thanks so much for following me. I know private blogs can be the most annoying thing in the world. I will probably go back to an open blog. Let me know if you find this a hassle.
I am still in the process of writing my new years resolutions. It is so important to me to get it right and make sure I am not setting goals that are unrealistic and unacheivable. But also have stuff that is challenging and meaningful to me.
I've been pushing to get everything together to make sure I'm ready but can you believe I haven't even decided exactly how I am going to do it. I haven't even decided who gets to read this blog yet! Crazy Crazy stuff.
Shakes have been mentioned both Myoplex and Tony Ferguson. But I need some real food of course. I'm wondering if I can work something for a month or so for a kickstart or if I'm better off just starting out with food and exercise as I plan to continue.
I bought the bathers yesterday and I'm kind of ready to jump into the pool. Some lessons would probably be an idea but it's not going to happen. It's going to be a matter of jumping in and improving as I go.
I think my 101 in 1001 days needs revising also.
You'll see a blogroll and goals and rewards and stuff pop up down the side eventually but geez finding a format isn't easy! The new blogger is temperamental when it comes to the templates or layouts you can use and there doesn't seem to be many people making them yet. I absolutely adored Caz's templates which is where my last blog layout came from but unfortnately they aren't compatible with the new system.
Wow I have so much to do. First off I really need to decide who can or can't read this thing. THEN I need to finish my resolutions and get ready for tomorrow.
Take Care all! May you all be blessed in 2008 with more than you could ever imagine.
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