9/84

I am NOT KING SHIT. I am not some invincable dieting weight losing goddess. I need to work hard to lose weight and yes eating shit WILL hurt me this once. I really need to drum this shit into my head.



It's like winners syndrome or something. You are successful and you are happy with your result so you get your trophy then you go out partying with your trophy. "I'm good" you say to yourself. "Look at the results I just acheived". ""Check my shiny trophy" "Oh go on enjoy yourself, have a beer, drink a tequila shot or two it wont hurt you just this once."

Then you wake up shitfaced two days later having shared your personal bits thanks to a mastercard priceless ad featuring yours truly you now stink and you are suffering consequences that "weren't" going to affect you this once. You missed the next game and your chances for the finals are over. OOPS

No I didn't go and get smashed in the last two days. (Although my 4am facebooking probably suggests otherwise) But I did look at the weightloss I had acheived yesterday and I let my food and habits slip a little. I was lucky I maintained my weight at 122.6 kg today but to maintain that weight again tomorrow would only be by some sort of miracle. And apart from that maintenance is not the goal - WEIGHT LOSS IS!

Geeez I am an idiot sometimes.

I also think food makes me grumpy! Like really snooty and depressing! I get some seriously strong cravings for shitty food and I bcome a really stroppy, sad, sooky, tantrum throwing tart if I don't get what I want. And I don't just mean with the food! God forbid if I knock the remote to the floor from the side table I mean HOW MUCH SHIT CAN ONE GIRL TAKE? Honestly - Even I know this is pathetic but at the time it seems like my whole world is going to cave in.


I think I need to stick to the rules - I am also going to pack up the shit I am not supposed to eat and make the parentals hide it from me. They hide the chocolate (which I know is here somewhere) so they can hide the mueseli bars and toast and other yummy things I would succumb to before having my shake like I am supposed to.


For goodness sake - all this and I'm not giving up the smokes like Miss Nicky. You are a total champ babe! Keep up the great work.

8/84

Weigh In Day!!!

I am so pleased to be able to report that I lost 2.3kgs this week!

So Stats and Goals Update

Start Weight:~ 126.9 kgs
Goal Weight:~ 64 kgs
Current Weight:~ 122.6 kgs
Weight Lost:~ 4.3 kgs
% Weight Lost:~ 3.3%
Weight to Goal:~ 58.6 kgs

♥ FOOD:~ I am going to stick to my shakes - Generally had 2 a day and a normal meal
♥ EXERCISE:~ I am going to move a little more everyday - Am up and about a little more every day so this is good
♥ I am going to cook up a big pot of Vegetable soup - Oh it's the most yummy soup ever
♥ I am going to set my alarm to start getting up earlier - I set my alarm the getting up thing never happened
♥ I am going to be under 122kg (thinking I'm holding onto a lot of water weight) - 122.6 kg I am still rather pleased with this
♥ Overall I had a half half week but a reward on the scales of a 2.3 kg loss means my whole week was a positive one.


My Goals for this Week

♥ FOOD 1:~ Stick to my Shakes for the majority of meals
♥ FOOD 2:~ Clean out the Pantry and Fridge

♥ EXERCISE:~ Continue to Move a little bit everyday

♥ OTHER 1:~ Catch up with Megan Tuesday
♥ OTHER 2:~ Blog Everyday
♥ OTHER 3:~ Continue to help Mum de clutter the house 1 hour a day

7/84

WOOHOO I am so glad I have logged on now to find that my iPhone blog worked . I had doubts being my first time and all but all that typing wasn't wasted :)

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

I hope all you Mummy's out there had a fabulous day. I have heard stories of disasters and of spoils. If you have lost your Mum I hope your day was filled with fond memories of special times you have spent with her.

I did end up asleep before midnight last night which was good. However in the cold weather despite waking up quite early I went back to bed until lunch. (Yes I am bad and I didn't do brekky in bed for Mum) Mum and Dad were out to church and when they came home we headed out for lunch as the local chinese restaurant and dessert at the pancake place next door. Same one I went to on Thursday night.

It was very yummy. I was very full. The chinese was healthy the pancakes not so much. But we did share the pancakes so I didn't have a full one.

I don't think eating this crap is any good for me though cause after we got home I got grumpy. Bad food leads to craving more bad food and sometimes I have the most childish attitude. I really really want scones with jam and cream. There are two ads on TV at the moment highlighting beautiful scones with Jam and Cream. One is Foxtel and the other is Home Brand. Honestly it is bad for dieting people to have this thrown in their face all the time.

I tried to cook some beautiful soft poached eggs to have on toast. Pulled them out at the whites weren't cooked properly - put it back in for 10 seconds and the yolks were hard. Boy did that upset me. Dad had eggs on toast for dinner cause I was going to feed them to the dogs. I only like soft yolked eggs and I've never mastered the art of cooking them myself. So I was off pouting again. I don't even need any more food. So I decided to stop being a little bitch and sit on the couch and blog instead.

Well first I went through Facebook and deleted a whole pile of people. People I am wondering why are they on my facebook? I hope I haven't accidentally deleted any of the wrong people haha.

TV is again BORING so again I am off to bed to read my book and get in an early night. I would say Mum and I will be back in the rumpus room sorting things out tomorrow.

122.7kgs this morning. If I gain tomorrow (which is official weigh in day for me) then meh so be it - the chinese and the pancakes will do that to you. But I am hoping to maintain or lose a little more. The goal was 122kgs.

My First iPhone Blog 6/84

I forgot to blog today and then I thought why ruin my perfectly good trend? So I haven't yay!!!

It got cold and the TV was dull so I've climbed into my nice warm bed. Dogs are already snoring away beside me here :-) Hopefully I'll fall asleep before midnight for the first time in ages.

Today Mum and I continued de cluttering the rumpus room. I honestly cannot believe how much rubbish 4 people can collect. I suppose give 3 clutterbugs 21 years in one place and you're going to get buried in junk. The main task so far has involved tonnes and tonnes of paper.

I hurt my ankle 3 x in this process and spent the evening on the couch sooking. I gotta stop over doing it.

123.3kg this morning dissappointed cause I had this inkling I was in for a big drop.

I think Im going to read a little and head for snoozyland.

5/84

Well apparently yesterdays pancakes didn't hurt me too badly. 123.3kg today.

I don't really have much to say today. I dunno why.
I have had this really powerful depressive feeling. It's made me really sad, short and emotional. There's absolutely NO reason for it so I'm hoping it passes overnight.

I need some de cluttering tips please! What do you think is the best method for selling unwanted items? eBay, trading post, thursday trader, market stall, carboot stall. What do you bother selling and what do you chuck? Can you really sell almost anything (as long as it's in good condition) ??

I need to help Mum get this house together - today she's depressed. I need Domestic Blitz or Second Chance or something to come in here and give us a huge hand. We seem to be chasing our tail with getting this place ready.

4/84

Weigh in this morning 123.7kg

Sometimes I gotta say I am a complete moron!

This afternoon I got heaps of exercise in my wheelchair thanks to a bed shopping trip for Mum and Dad. They had a waterbed that was in a constant state of repair/leaking. It had patches on patches and they decided it wouldn't leave the house with them when they leave.

Finally a week or so ago it got a leak that just wouldn't be patched. You'd get in the bed and get out with a lovely damp feeling.

So the bed has been pulled apart and they were planning on sleeping in the airbed I bought a few months back until the move took place.

It only took a few nights for Dad to start complaining that they needed a real bed so shopping was undertaken today. We failed miserably! There's really no nice beds out there at the moment.

In the meantime I got about 45 minutes worth of vigorous wheelchair cardio/ubwo. Carpet and hills are KILLERS. I avoided the delicious looking donuts and choc chip cookies in the food court. (They looked soooo good)

Then later in the evening I picked up one of my good friends to go see a movie. We were a little early and there's this place called Stacks beside the cinemas. Stacks is a pancake joint - You can see where this is headed right?

Yup me buried face down in Jamaican Banana Pancakes. Just like below only add ice cream. :(

They were honestly some of THE BEST pancakes I have ever tasted! (And I make awesome pancakes) But I stuck to my shakes today until that moment. And it's important that I lose this weight! I made a whole list about why this is important to me and then all it takes is someone saying OOOo pancakes and I'm gone!

I do hope tomorrow is better.

Just as a side note - I went to see Fast and the Furious. I loved it! I loved it LOTS! I am so glad no one had given any bits or pieces away for me too cause I enjoyed seeing the story unravel. So I won't give anything away here either. Except that Vin Diesel is back and he's still hot. :D

3 / 84

Weigh in this morning 123.7kg. I'm happy with the downward type trend for now. I also found it interesting that my clothes weigh 1.3kg. I thought it would be less than that. 1.7kg to go to this weeks goal.

The sleeping thing is no better.
The food thing I'm doing heaps better with, but I haven't moved too much today.

1pm Shake
4pm Shake
8pm Cheese Twists
8:15pm Veggie Soup
11:30pm Shake



Apart from the cheese twists I had it all under control. They kind of came into it when I waited too long to get the soup out and then overheated it. The soup is so nice! I had forgotten how much I love homemade veggie soup. I love broth based soups. Not much a fan of pumpkin or tomato or creamy stuff but the broth based are yummy. And such a winter comfort food.



I suppose the trick it to get through winter and it's confort foods and bulky clothes and come out the other end smaller than you started. It's not an easy challenge but that's the one I'm taking on, and one I plan on acheiving.